Found words

Today, instead of trying to express myself through my own words, I thought I'd find some others who share the same feelings. I came across this website:

http://www.honoredbabies.org/writing-center/poetry

There were tons of different poems written by different people who all had different experiences with miscarriage. This is one that I really related to:


Thoughts For The Child I Lost
by "Sis"


There might come a day sometime in the future
When I don’t think about you constantly,
Wonder what you would have looked like,
What color your hair would have been,
And how your smile might have looked.
There might come a day sometime in the future
When I won’t wonder what I did wrong.
When I won’t blame myself.
When the sharp blade of pain will become dull.
When I can accept this as meant to be.
There might come a day sometime in the future
When I carry another child
And though I will love him beyond measure
And though I will hold him a little tighter,
And though he will be my child,
He won’t be you.
There might come a day sometime in the future
When I am happy again.
When I can let go.
When I can look at a baby without aching for you.
But it won’t be today.