A trip to Limbo

Since the bfp, DH and I are both super excited, but a little reluctant to celebrate until after we see a little baby bouncing around in there on ultrasound.

I have basically have all the same symptoms as last time, and no morning sickness as of yet (7weeks, 2 days).

I got my first beta done at 13dpo, and it was a healthy 135, so the doctor said she didn't want me to come back for anymore blood work, and just to make an appt for sometime after 8 weeks. It feels like an eternity! I am so anxious! I just want that little bean in there to grow!

So, my first appt is for Oct 7th. This is also our 2 year anniversary, so I am really hoping we have a lot to celebrate that night! I haven't been able to confirm that I will get an u/s, but Dh is coming with me just in case, and if the doctor declines, I really might have to resort to crying and begging!

In the meantime tho, I did go have my OB Intake appointment with the OB educator. I just loved her! When she came and got me in the waiting room, she apologized for it taking so long, explaining that she was reviewing my charts. And then she said "First things first, How are you feeling? Are you doing alright? What can we do to relieve your anxiety?"

Yeah! Someone who cared! It felt so nice! Of course, I tried to hint towards getting an u/s done, but she explained that sometimes this early (I was 6 weeks, 6 days) the babies development can vary so much, that it can cause even more anxiety if things aren't progressed as far as the mother thinks they should be. So what she suggested was to do another HCG draw. She said that she expected the number to be thousands and thousands, and that would make me feel better.

I was a little disappointed, but I didn't really want to have an u/s without DH there anyways, so I gratefully took the bloodwork she offered me (it was more than I arrived thinking I would get!) Then we went on to chat all about family medical history, and different things I should know about being pg. It wasn't a very informational session, because I knew so much already. She told me it was a good thing everyone didn't know as much as I did or she would be out of a job! Lol, thanks for all the info I've learned from my fellow nesties :)

So, I went off for my blood draw (where I learned I just need to give them my left arm off the bat- they always try the right first, and it never works!) And went on to work, trying to wait patiently for the phone call the next day with my results. To my surprise, she called me 5 hours later! It was sooo nice not to have to wait! and at 34 dpo/6 weeks, 6 days, my hcg was... drumroll please...

113,460!!!

I was so happy to hear that number! I think it seems pretty high! I checked americanpregnancy.org for the list of average hcg levels and it said:

* 3 weeks LMP: 5 - 50 mIU/ml
* 4 weeks LMP: 5 - 426 mIU/ml
* 5 weeks LMP: 18 - 7,340 mIU/ml
* 6 weeks LMP: 1,080 - 56,500 mIU/ml
* 7 - 8 weeks LMP: 7,650 - 229,000 mIU/ml
* 9 - 12 weeks LMP: 25,700 - 288,000 mIU/ml
* 13 - 16 weeks LMP: 13,300 - 254,000 mIU/ml
* 17 - 24 weeks LMP: 4,060 - 165,400 mIU/ml
* 25 - 40 weeks LMP: 3,640 - 117,000 mIU/ml

So I was definitely in the 7-8 week level, even tho I was just shy of 7 weeks :)

The ob educator was right, it did make me feel better! My level when I was in the ER last time was only 1408, so I have surpassed that by far! Yay for milestones!. Now, if only Oct 7th would just get here!

Big news!

So, I know its been awhile since I updated, but I have a few friends irl who periodically check my blog, so I wanted to hold off until I had a chance to tell them in person, before I posted:

MY BFP!!!

Yep, that's right! I am KTFU again! Yay!

I found out on labor day, and here is how my bfp story goes:

DH and I went to some close friends out-of-town wedding over labor day weekend. The entire time I was having cramps reminscent of my last pg, but since I had a temp dip in my chart the day before we left, I thought forsure AF was coming. I wasn't giving up all hope tho, and it was very stressful being away from home (and my thermometer - we shared a hotel room with 7 other people!)

Almost as soon as we got home on Sunday, I took a test. I was only 10 dpo, but those cramps were driving me crazy, and I just had to know! but, as most of you know, 10 dpo is REALLY early. DH and I both thought there might have been a line, but it was one of those barely-there-and-only-if-you-hold-it-at-the-right-angle-in-the-right-light kind of lines.

So we decided to take it as inconclusive and wait until the next morning to test again with FMU. I am so glad we decided to do that, as anxious as I was to take that digital I hadwaiting for me, the nest 24 hours was so amazing!

That night Dh and I had a campfire. Him and I, and our puppy, all just layed in the grass and watched for shooting stars to wish on :) It was peaceful, relaxing, and just such a love-filled evening, listening to each others wishes. We went to bed that night excited for the next morning, but also I think we found some peace in knowing that even if there wasn't two pink lines the nest day, we had each other and could still enjoy wonderful moments like that night.

Cut to the next morning. I woke up in the wee hours of the morning, as I always do, because I had to pee. I was aware that 11dpo was still early, but after that almost a line from the day before, I was really feeling like this would be it! So, I took out another dollar tree test... lo and behold.. the line was still faint, but this time it was definitly there! I whipped out the digital anxious to see the word PREGNANT stare back and me, dipped it in my dixie cup, and set it down. Almost immediately I saw that wonderful word!

I was super excited, but wasn't quite sure how to tell dh, so I decided to leave that test on the bathroom counter, so he could have the fun of seeing it from the test too. As I crawled back into bed, DH crawled out, so he could take his turn using the bathroom. But when he came back, he just got into bed, held me, and didn't say a word. I was baffled, but kept mum. After a few minutes he asked "So...?" And I replied "I left the test on the counter, didn't you see it?" DH says "I saw it, but I couldn't look. I wanted to hear it from you" Ahh, so cute, I gave him the tightest hug and said "Yes! You are going to be a Daddy!" He just pulled me even closer to him and held me tight and sighed "This is the best labor day EVER!"

It was so cute!