Well, that was just TOO easy

After just a single cycle of ttc, we already have our BFP!

I am feeling very ambivalent about this. Of course I am excited, but that is being overshadowed by my self doubt. I am feeling very uneasy about this.

Maybe because it happened so quickly and easily? I felt this way about my first pregnancy too - and that sure didn't end well. It just seems like if that process was simple, something else is going to have to be complicated to balance things out.

I want to have the milewide smile on my face - the kind that lasts and can't be wiped off - like I had with Levi's bfp.

But like I said, something just doesn't feel right, and I am terrified of what might go wrong...